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I’m gonna get my first paycheck tomorrow. So this is how working feels: Rush in the morning – breakfast and all; See ‘and feel’ the busy streets of Makati filled with people who seem to have so much in their minds; Enjoy the entire 9-10 hours with mates; Then back home? Drop dead! Thanks to Wax for always bugging me to find myself something fulfilling to do after college.

So we laughed the Friday away. Lunch felt like a Sat night out session. There was something about that day coz we were all sugar high. We couldn’t stop giggling and I guess people in the cafeteria noticed. When we got back to the office, it just won’t stop. Everyone always had something to say and we all burst into crazy chuckling. I couldn’t even remember exactly what was so funny but I perfectly remember how hard we laughed that we could barely breathe. I laughed the hardest, though. I was never good at laughter deprivation. Randy, Chit, and Chito put in too much. I didn’t expect Liway, Net, and Jazz to be just as silly. Mitch, Yvette and me were just expectant of what came next. Dante had to check on us from time to time (busy with more official issues).

I’m pretty comfortable with my work environment. I appreciate the healthy differences we all have. I told them how I used to be very emotional. It made me overlook “sense”. So I now believe in very complex ideas. They were all like ‘OMG!’.. haha

Here goes..

I always thought that Wax had unbelievable understanding of life. Then, I saw some sense he had in his words. Only, I’ve come to a learning I’ve developed on my own. But I’m sure there’s still so much to learn. What I believe now, may not be the same things I would believe in in the future.

Romantic love is not about exclusivity (refer to my previous blog in multiply.com about “why men cheat) but exclusivity builds on trust and respect. Love does not always come with trust. And complete trust leads to being complacent. Some people believe that love is an extreme form of liking but I believe there’s more to it than just that.

I’m not saying I’m tolerating cheaters. I’m just aware of the things that are beyond any woman’s or man’s control.

With love comes pain but pain can be unnecessary when justified. When we know how “real” things happen around us, we deal with pain more appropriately or we realize, “Why bother?” Pain doesn’t strengthen people. Determination does. Being broken into pieces doesn’t strengthen us at all but the will of bringing the pieces back does. Sometimes, feeling pain can be a waste of time. It’s all in the mind. You gain and feel good. You lose and cry. And you’re complete with or without. People should know that. This is what I learned from the book of Ecclesiastes. =)

I’m a generally happy person. But my life’s filled with too much unusual occurrences; all shocking to name one by one. I know there will still be so much to come in the future. I’m not living a normal life, I must say. But I was never ungrateful. One thing’s for sure – I’m not the type to say I’d live again and go through the same things ( It’s either hypocrites say that or that their life may be a perfect bore – No offense!). Of course God knows what he’s doing and no matter how hard I try to fathom that, it’s just beyond human comprehension. So I’m just, as always, happy with what I have. Blessed in a billion ways. So again, I thank God for my family, my beyb, my friends, and my situations.

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